TELL ME ABOUT THIS PHOBIA
physician Poet@ogodoimmaculate073116
1 month ago
Once, my paddy laughed at me so hard after an event
I must have put up some drama in public
What does she know?
She's probably one of the lucky souls that can't relate to this phobia
I can only tell you what I felt...
It was a fight to survive the chaos and fear my mind already created
A moment of mental dissonance and torture
Be happy if you can't relate
I was the 50th person in the row
Crawling into a dark skintight cave with lots of unknown people in front and behind
Bound tight by the walls pressing on me laterally
Can't push further, can't run back...
This feeling of being thrown into a giant jar with the lid tightly fixed
Suddenly, the air my nose draws is not enough
My lungs are filled but I still feel the need to keep drawing air hastily
And like over-distended balloons, I feel my lungs slowly losing it to explosion
I remember screaming so loud Unfortunately, only my head, heart, mind, and organs heard my scream
My sweat pores trembled and opened up to pour sweat out more profusely
Not even the surrounding tissues, solid rib cage, or tight muscles could stop my heart from jumping out of my body.
What a perpetual torment!
I'll be happier if you knocked me out
I would prefer I'm told the story later
Now my heart is in my hands and I'm happier dead than the sense of loneliness or disappearance of air.
This is how I describe it...
CLAUSTROPHOBIA
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