Cletus Okon
@cletusokon
1 year ago
Depression
Life has caused me so much pain
I can feel it through my vein
Will I ever go back being the same?
Wish the rain could wash away all my tears.
Oh yeah! I do really deserve a break
Everything I've come across happens to be fake
I pray at the end of it all I find out where I belong
Until then........I'll keep my faith strong.
Ami nsikede Okon! ( My name is Okon! )..........and this is my story.
I wake up everyday with tears in my eye
One question hits me as I look to the Sky
"Why was I born this way if this is how am gonna go?.
My Life seems stagnant and nothing seems to flow".
So I get on my knees and feel like to pray and then it hits me; What do I have to say?
Am made to believe that Everything happens for a reason. So to my own case of misfortune..........is this really my season?.
Iffa no mek am for this life mek ah bend buh despite all my efforts, why I never trend?
Everything I touch refuses turning into Gold. I wan hit the Jackpot! Abeg, God when? See! Me no com this life to suffer, to walk enter gutter.
I dy hussle for my paper January to December. Am doing all I can........Life of a Teenager; to put food on my table, to make things better.
And so..........I've come to see that I can't make progress.
Am unstable, undefined, I don't even know how to progress.
It's high time I break the deadlock. I won't die in silence!.
If I can't achieve anything, then what's my essence?
So my whole life has been a joke? Where do I go now that there's no Hope? What do I tell my people, my Folk? After all this years, how do I cope?
So many questions but not a lot of answers
I can't find the right word to express it as each day passes.
All my Life what I've seen are mistakes; things claim to be good but the end up fake.
At times I look in the mirror..............I doubt my own reflection.
What if the man at the other side is an objection?
It's gotten to a point I trust nobody but myself that's why sometimes I'll be alone, doing nothing, just talking to myself.
So iffa pass u for road ah no greet you, abeg no vex. I've got too much on my plate, shea you get?.
At times I do wish...........If wishes were horses but I've come to understand..............Life is not a bed of roses.
I wish my yoke be easy and my burden be light but things don't go the way I think it might.
Am devastated, depressed................who do I talk to?
Oh yeah! No one I trust to share my woes to.
Too much eye service in the case of some people; they're watching from close range to attack like a missile.
In this Life when they see you're successful, they tend to use your past to talk against you.
But I don't give a damn if you don't like me. I wasn't born to entertain you.
And so..........I won't block all my haters; mek one or two persons spread my message when I hammer.
What's the point of trust if you can't be trusted in return?
What's the point of hate if you can't be hated in return?
What's the point of Love if you can't be loved in return?
Because they love you does not mean they will not lie because am a Big Boy does not mean I cannot cry.
Big Boys don't cry..........but sometimes..........I cry, I weep!
I hope this message reach you well
am a just a young Teenager with a story to tell.
#yakaba!
#Poetry
#NirclePoetryCommunity
#nigerianpoetsStories from circles.