Ibiang Ayei
@ayeiibiang080407
1 year ago

THE LIES WE TOLD OURSELVES

We both put pen to paper and signed
the terms of our friendship
- it was strictly business, and no pleasure;
the boundaries, well defined;
well measured,
you planted a beacon in the wall:
A few CCTVs to checkmate impending sensuality
Yes, you were the
detective monitoring my every call

So with the cross hanging over your chest,
you wore the tenets of your religion boldly
And honestly, I had no issue with that
because I
respected your person,
and admired your faith in the God
you strongly
believed to have been bringing down the blessing


Yes, like a slave I did your bidding,
just so I could be with you
Sacrificed my all, and everything
an offering,
until the smoke from the burning flesh left a hue in the sky
- a tinting

But deep down I nursed my feelings
Yes,
my dissected stomach did have traces of meat
True,
my guts did have pieces of my heart in it

So for every second we spent together we sought
to be in each other's skin
And like conjoined twins separable only by death,
our lungs longed that we shared the same breath
- that we shared the same nostrils


Eventually time drew us closer with every tick,
the clock pulling the cord;
Playing our strings till even our stares sent messages
without our lips necessarily speaking a word

But we kept playing the fool to deceive reality, didn't we?
That "everything was under control,
and that
there was no need for panicking"
So you see, we both lied!

For our salvation had now turned into recapture;
The rosary a hangman's noose, choking our will
to live and suspending us
above the green carpeted grounds of pleasure


So now all we know to do is play this blame game;
Pointing accusing fingers on who we felt was responsible
for the breach in our contract
Hitting the "delete" until all of our memories were trashed,
until the "block" button became very acquainted with our contact

It's sad we couldn't cuddle the flames of our burning desires,
so we just blamed the inferno
on the love we believed to have started these bushfires
It's a pity we both fell for the lies we'd been telling ourselves,
because in all truth,
we could never really keep it low at "friends"



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Written by: Ibiang, Ayei Okoi
Tuesday, 21st September, 2021.
8:23pm
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