THE LIE I TOLD MY BODY

Godsgift Isaiah
@godsgiftisaiah299364
1 year ago

What would you do, when you realise that your entire life is a lie and you have been living in the lie you told yourself?’

A question for your thoughts.
A question I have answers for.
Question: What is Love?
My first answer: Love is stupid.
I was only eight(months) enjoying
my first life in my first home I called ‘womb.’
And there I was with my ears filled with
fairy tales about a being who gave his life for an unloving people.
There and then, my body believed one thing, ‘Love is stupid.’

A question for your thoughts.
A question I have answers for.
Question: What is Love?
My second answer: Love is weak.
I was only five(years) when my ears filled again:
‘When someone slaps you on your right cheek, make sure to turn the left.’
Those words sounded unbelievable like expecting
my little sister to keep her snitchy mouth shut after
pulling her tiny ears because she tore my note.
If my little sister couldn't turn a blind eye then,
Why would I turn my two cheeks over to the pain of slaps?
I was pretty sure my weak dear Sunday school teacher couldn't fight.
But I could, my tiny hands and mouth were created
to inflict pain on any David who dared my Goliath.
There and then, my soul believed one thing, ‘Love is weak.’

And my mature baby self made a promise to Mother Earth.
‘Eru pe ni mi, bi eru pe ni mo ma pada dele sugbon mio ni gba
Ife laaye lati ba aye mi je.’
I promised Mother Earth once more.
‘I am sand, as sand will I return home but I will never allow
Love to destroy my life.’
A promise I broke before making it.

A question for your thoughts.
A question I have answers for.
Question: What is Love?
My third answer: Love is a Being, an unseen, popular, and very controversial One.
I was only sixteen(years) and by this time,
my ears had been filled many times that its drums no longer beat.
My mouth finally opened of its accord calling out to
the Being to save me from the bin.
In just sixteen years of fighting.
I lost all battles and won no conquest,
I was the conquered.
My hands and mouth had failed to shield me from David's sling.
My Goliath is on the threshing floor begging not to be thrashed.
There and then, my spirit betrayed me by calling her lover.
Mother Earth mocked me, ‘Foolish girl, you cannot run from your betrothed.’
There and then, my body, soul, and spirit succumbed to one thing true:
‘Love is an unseen Being that came to die in a body to save a weak me.’
And I broke free from the lies I made my body believe.


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