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Rema Blaze@blessingazugama918086
1 month ago
Disclaimer: THIS IS A VERY TOXIC PIECE
Read at your own risk..
And Do not read if it's triggering..
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Where do I go with all of this?
Where do I start?.
The fact that I added bleach into her tea when she wasn't looking...
The fact that I manipulated the Truth the whole time to her.
The fact that I was a lie to her.
The fact that my emotions were also liars.
Okay no...they weren't liars...not entirely but eventually they became.
I mean,
I love her....I loved her.
Let me tell you all about my girlfriend, Regina in a few words.
Regina my girlfriend was a goddess and at first when we had met I wondered how someone as beautiful as her could ever breath on the same earth as mine.
It took a month of being close and in that month alot was felt.
Then I asked her to be my girlfriend and three years had progressed and left.
The funny thing about Regina was that she was crazy about me too.
She was absolutely smitten by me and it was something that shocked me and honestly every other men who said with their eyes that she was wasting her time with me.
How could a woman as beautiful as Regina be completely and utterly obsessed with me.?
What did I do to deserve such love, such commitment, such respect, such loyalty.
Why me?
Of all the men in the world.
Why me?
Yep...
This was the chronic side of insecurity...
How it came, I don't recall...but I remember vividly when insecurity had come knocking and I had the door left unlocked, unguarded.
How insecurity became my friend and fiend.
I still do not know till this day.
Now this insecurity is laughing directly at me with it fangs stuck out.
This insecurity that is carrying Regina's dead cold body in it's arms right this instant asking me why I had listened to him.
The same insecurity that told me that she would leave me, the same insecurity that told me that, she was slipping away..
The same insecurity that told me that, being cold and hostile to her would help.
The same insecurity that told me to slap her the first time, then hit her the second time when she had a five minutes conversation with my agent , which seemed inappropriate to me.
Yes I was jealous,
Jealousy was insecurity's paddy.
The same insecurity that told me to leave going to the gym and use her as a punching bag instead.
If I beat her just the right amount, she would hate the sun, she would be indoors and no one could behold her like I did.
No one would be able to see my Regina?
Only I would have.
So it was quite painful that the same insecurity was laughing at me right now.
Now a murderer like me is sitting on my bed staring at the rope hung on my ceiling waiting to hang myself after I write this note .
I stare at Regina's dead body, she is still in her sleeping position.
_Regina was..._
Regina is...
_I am a bastard..._
No I am a man in love.
_I am the devil's spawn._
No I am just protecting her.
_I am a mad man._
The universe not only collides in my head but destroys it.
I k$#led her.
I....unalived the only woman that ever loved me.
In the most stupid way possible, a bleach...a cheap poison.
And it must have hurt...cause I remember her last words.
"My stomach is hurting Dee, I want to go to bed"
Then
Tears came out..
and it was when she lay down that she had realized what I had done.
Tears came out of her eyes.
Her eyes held regret.
Why?
Didn't she expect that a monster like me would erupt?
Didn't she see the signs?
Why did she stay?
Yes I had the money and stability..
But still why?
Now I'm going to kill myself because of her, cause I can't be left on this earth alone.
I will find her, heaven or hell.
And I would be there with her.
Cause Regina is mine...till the end.
@blazerema
