my first love and my first heartbreak part 2
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1 month ago
Me: You know what's even more hilarious? I wrote this stupid stalker note about you! Here's the original
(I handed him the crumpled paper)
Mark: (reading) "His eyes are like the ocean, his hair is like silk, his abs are like a washboard, he uses rose perfume scent..."
(He looked up, his face turning bright red)
Mark: Rachel, this is... intense.
Me: (giggling) Right? I know, I know, it's crazy.
Mark: (still reading) "His pink lips are so juicy, I just wanna..."
(He cleared his throat, trying to compose himself)
Me: (laughing) Stop reading! You're making it weird!
Mark: (nervously chuckling) Okay, okay.
(I took a deep breath and asked the question that would change everything)
Me: So, Mark... want to go out with me?
(Awkward silence)
Mark: ...Okay.
Me: Okay?! That's it?! Just okay?!
Mark: (nervously smiling) Yeah... okay.
(I grinned, trying to play it cool)
Me: Alright then... okay it is!
(We stood there, awkwardly staring at each other, until I broke the silence)
Me: So... when and where?
Mark: (still looking confused) Uh... how about tomorrow... at the park?
Me: (excitedly) Tomorrow! Park! Got it!
(I turned to leave, then spun back around)
Me: And Mark?
Mark: Yeah?
Me: Don't forget... I'm watching you!
We'd been dating for weeks, and Mark finally opened up about why he left Kenya.
Me: What happened? Why did you leave Kenya?
Mark: (sighing) My parents... they had issues. My mom married some rich guy, and my dad... he drinks a lot.
Mark: at a point my mum attempted to end my life
Mark: I tried tried end it to so they won't suffer
Me: Oh, Mark, I'm so sorry.
Mark: (shaking his head) It's not just that. My mom... she never loved me. She says it's me who spoiled her shine.
(Tears welled up in his eyes)
Mark: She hated me, Rachel. She always made me feel like I was the problem.
(I wrapped my arms around him, holding him close)
Me: Sorry, Mark. It's not your fault.
(He buried his face in my shoulder, sobbing)
Me: You're amazing, Mark. You deserve love.
(I kissed him softly, trying to ease his pain)
The next day, Mark went out to the jewelry store. I tagged along, browsing nearby shops.
As I walked back to meet Mark, I overheard a familiar voice.
"Who do we have here? Sweet Mark, playing Rachel like he does. Do tell me, how will you dump her?"
(My heart sank. It was one of Mark's old friends, a troublemaker)
Mark: (uncertainly) I... I'm testing something out.
(I felt like I'd been punched in the gut. Testing something out? Was I just an experiment?
I tried to process my emotions, but before I could react, Mark's friend continued)
Friend: "Testing something out?" You're such a player, Mark!
(I couldn't take it anymore. I turned and walked away, leaving Mark and his friend behind)
My heart was shattered. Was everything a lie? Was Mark just using me?
(Tears streamed down my face as I wondered what I'd done to deserve this)
Me: Why did you make me waste my time when you didn't love me???
Mark: I was scared to lose you... I didn't want to hurt you...
Me: You were scared to lose me??? But you didn't even love me!!!
Mark: I know... I was confused... I didn't know what I wanted...
Me: Confused??? You were confused??? I poured my heart out to you... I gave you everything... and you were just confused???
Mark: Rachel, please understand...
Me: No, Mark... I don't want to understand... I want to know why you kept me waiting... why you made me fall deeper in love with you when you didn't feel the same way...
Mark: I don't know... I was scared of being alone, I guess...
Me: Scared of being alone??? That's not an excuse to play with someone's emotions... Next time, if someone loves you... love them back or turn them down... Don't make them wait... Don't crush their soul...
I traveled to California.... I spent 10 years there and I go married to Martin... I know you'll feel bad I married someone else and that person is mark just few adjustments..... Thank you for hearing my story stay tuned for more... Don't forget to click follow and that heart emoji ba-bye♥️♥️
