I am a conqueror
Bello Folakunmi@bellofolakunmi846557
11 months ago
#poetry
#nircle community
Today is better than yesterday,the agony tends to fade away day by day. I seek comfort and refuge within my four walls,the outside world isn't friendly with me . I escape reality by drawing myself so deep in my dreams. I fear tomorrow Everytime my eyes meet the first sunrise of the day. I'm capable of many things but definitely not this,I found myself drifting to something at ease. I hate that I'm becoming more of the shadow of myself lately,I hate the mirror cause all I see staring right back at me are all my lost dreams grinning and Daring me to be miserable for all my life.
The future seems near and also far at the same time;I'm crawling and climbing away from my helplessness towards it. My demons seems to catch up to me at a faster rate nowadays but I try to fight and keep them at Bay for they leave an excruciating pain and a big scar behind. My innocence seems to be my weakness;my calm heart seems to be taken for granted. Peace and serenity Is all I ask for,dramas and tantrums seems to be what I am getting. My heart feels heavy though I haven't faced any tragedy nor any heartbreak.
The pain leaves temporarily and then when I think it is all over,it comes back again exerting full force. I hate that I can't get to be normal without all these problems,why can't I get to be normal? I pray to the Lord everyday to call for his help to help me conquer this battle.
