CHIDERA IS BORN
Franklin A.N.@anfranklin784877
2 days ago
In Dream count between pages 154 and the up to 158. Chidera is born,Zikora a fierce woman who seemingly looks out together but has a world falling apart,had a baby named "Chidera".
Chidera just like me had a Non-nigerian father, Chidera's father was Kwame, A Ghanian entangled with Zikora, who hitherto made her world fall apart more than it was.
My father too is Sierraleonan but I bear the name "Chidera".
I see a profound play of a child craving her father's love and on not getting it, settles for what looks like love from a man because the Man who should have properly loved her was bread rumbling, with her mother and with her too in my own understanding.
This page was so profound and bare about childbearing. It was the most raw picture I'd ever seen in books about birth, painted only with A,B and C's. Just words alone painted this profound experience.
That word "Birth" in some sentences in the pages reminded me of how I birth myself at certain times.
I read a book to distract me from a boy last time, I was so engulfed in the pages of the book that I forgot reality. I read novellas and random books from time to time, literary pieces and unrelatable literally pieces from time to time,but there are major seasons that I break out of by just forgetting the times that live in.
It's the times that I die and wake up. Last time I read a major book was the time I was getting over a season and a boy.
By the time I was done with the book,I was over the season and a boy crush who didn't worth crushing on him, a best friend who moved to another town and a bare me left to face what it was,all my distractions from reality faded and I found solace in a book.
I had learned to enjoy myself in solitude and my analysis on that book made me meet another boy crush.
I went to Sicily with Mario puzo and watched 'Turi' and the rest of them.
By the time I was out of Sicily, it was clear what I wanted, what I felt and how I was going to navigate.
Now it's cloudy again, I'm in America with Chimamanda, it's longer than how short snapped the trip to Sicily and the stay was.
The adventure in America is long and especially with Chimamanda using Dr. Nkanu Esege as the character of the doctor.
A literary wonder of how she put her husband in the character of the doctor who was a specialist and an expert in his field..... Esege is her (Chimamanda) husband's name in reality.
Now in America with Chiamaka, Zikora,Omelogor and Nassifatou,I'm englufed in their world,with Chiamaka's parents and her estranged lover the black American history professor. Nassifatou and figuring out her balance between the guinea and America with her daughter who is free spirited and in love with her mother's boss chiamaka.
Now "Chidera" is born by Zikora and the gory and profound but beautiful pictures surrounding his birth,remind me of myself with a Non-nigerian father too but also Zikora's chaotic world reminds me of my own chaos in a dimension different from Chiamaka's in the book. But each of these women tend to have a piece of me in their character.
But this page in this chapter where Chidera is born drives deep for me.
