Peace Matthew
@peacematthew
1 year ago
Looking back at times still brings back the ache I thought would have gone with the passage of time
Trying hard not to forget you, even if it brings unbearable, and suffocating pains to my bones and heart
I can never forget you, you were an important part of me
A very important part of me, that I gave away to you
Believing you could keep it safe with you forever
You couldn't keep the little promises you made, so I never expected you to keep my heart safe again
You made me fall into a deep hole of agonizing love without you by my side
Remember, you promised forever
I don't blame you as much as I did before
Now I blame myself for believing you were willing to fight for both of us
You gave up on yourself, but you had no right to
Your heart was mine to handle carefully with my love for you
You broke your heart that you gave me, by giving up on life itself
I was willing to stand by your side in your weak moments, when your life was slipping away little by little like an ice cream melting away under the scorched sun
Your pride sent me away from your arms
I didn't set my eyes on you when you finally gave up the ghost
Oh, I hated you for depriving me the opportunity to be with the one I love in his last moments
Maybe what you did was for the best
I didn't get to see the sickly and broken man you've become then
I only remembered our happy memories
The memories of our future
The memories of our unending love
But what are this memories? Memories I cherished, but chose to crash my heart
Pricking my heart continuously
No matter how many times, my mind drift to the thoughts of you, like an hobby
I wished I was white, I could have gone through the Time machine to get you
In a black land, I can't find you
I wished you hadn't sent me away from your hospital room
I wished I had fought to stay by your side
I wish I could see you again
These are my wishes
Wishes come to pass, but not this one
Still I'm grateful I had met you in this life
I wouldn't trade all this pain, I'm glad to have met you in this life, for our journey of love
I would have loved you better
Met you faster
Held on tighter
In all I'm glad you came to my world.