Peace Matthew
@peacematthew
1 year ago
#My poem
#still pushing to be better 💯
My mind is clouded,
Clouded with the storm of the cold days that stood to wage war against me.
In that cold night, I was all alone, looking after my troubled Sea.
The troubled Sea I placed myself into.
I had been playing with fire, and didn't expect to get burnt miserably. Instead of blaming myself, I blamed the fire for the pain I'm going through.
I wasn't always like this, I wanted more from the one who is unwilling to give
But the one willing to give I took it's for granted. He is like a puppy desperately to be love, and give love to me.
What a fool I am to push him away with made-up excuses to avoid his advances.
They are very different, the way they stare at me, I should have known.
Yes, it true that one's eyes can reveal secrets of the heart.
The one that love me, has his eyes full of genuine love for me, while the second doesn't
I had seen the way he bare his emotions, not minding he is a man
My dad once said, only weak men shows emotions,
But I believe he wasn't.
He was all a woman could ask for, but my stupid heart was beating for another man.
My heart chases after the one that will put me through hell like our adventure into the desert, where he left me stranded.
I walked side-by-side with my a newfound friend, Sand, blowing dust into my striking blue eyes.
Oh, the bare land gave me more privacy to think and drown myself in thoughts.
I took a chance with the one I love,
But he left me. Left me without any notice.
I had a choice to make,
A choice I had no power in me to decide but did unconsciously.
But still a choice I had to make
Fate as always been my greatest enemy.
The frosty air blew reminding me of the decision I have to make
Maybe I'm being selfish and unfair to both
Holding both tightly, one at my right and the other by my left.
Then the cloud poured down, heavy rain into my heart,
Drenching my flamy heart to a calm.
I realize later, when he wasn't mine to love
I should have chosen the one that loved me, rather than the one I love.
Regrets can't bring you back to me,
I didn't know you were a better option until I lost you to another.